Cowgirl Jeans

Yesterday I was able to go shopping with two of my sisters.  We spent quite a bit of time shopping at the second hand store where they live.  The prices there are amazing (like $1 an item) and so it makes it worth the risk to buy clothes that might not quite fit.  So, I grabbed several items -- some I thought I would fit and some I wasn't so sure of.  When we got back to my parents house and I tried all of them on, all fit but one shirt which hopefully will fit soon.  It was wonderful to find so many clothes that fit me with very little effort shopping.

Besides shopping at the second hand store (or the next hand store as my nephew calls it), my youngest sister and I stopped at the western store.  We looked at the jeans and I told her I needed to find something much bigger, but she convinced me to try on a pair of 34's.  Knowing that I'm still much bigger than my husband around the waist, I was hesitant -- he wears 34/36's.  Still, she was able to talk me into taking a pair into the dressing room.  It helped that I was in a great mood because of all the clothes I had just found at the second hand store.  

After trying one pair of jeans that I knew would fit (and they did), I tried on the pair of 34's.  Surprisingly, they pulled right over my hips (test #1) and even more surprisingly, they zipped (test #2).  Also, they felt comfortable and my fat didn't squish out over the top (test #3).  It was so exciting to find out that I could buy a pair of jeans straight off the shelf.  It's also a little scary because now I want to buy more and more clothes.... I don't think I have the budget for this!

Being able to buy western jeans off the shelf yesterday made my day!  I haven't owned a pair since before I had my first child.  At least I don't remember owning them since then.  It makes me feel a little more complete and like I'm getting back to myself.  I want so badly to be the person that I remember as me; the person I feel like on the inside.  I want people to see me the way I see myself inside and being able to fit into a pair of western jeans gets me one step closer to that dream.  

I can't wait to see what comes next.  I know I have a long way to go, but I'm beginning to see the progress I've made and it makes me feel so happy.  Less than a week from now, I'll be pulling on my new jeans, putting on my boots, and heading to the rodeo.  I'm excited to see how losing the weight helps with sitting for a couple hours in the grandstands.  I'm pretty sure that will be one of those "too excited to sleep" nights and I can't wait.