I'm not sure where we are at in our backpacking adventures, but this should be our last evening in the mountains. By the time this posts, we should be just settling down from our adventures from the day and getting ready to make our way to our tents before the long hike out tomorrow.
Oddly, this is going to be an emotional night for me in the mountains because it's signifying the end of a trip and at the same time, this is the day that I consider to be my anniversary date for the time I finally decided (once and for all) to make a real change in my life. While all of July was a major contributor to my success at this point, this day a year ago was the day in which I decided I'd lied to myself for long enough. I know I'll be sitting in the mountains, looking up at the stars and thinking about all that I have been through this past year. I wish that I had a computer to type all my feelings and emotions up on the spot, while I'm in the moment, but at the same time, I'm glad I won't have one. I need time to reflect and savor all the successes and failures that the past year, and twenty years, have brought.... Besides, if I had a computer, I'd probably write a blog post that was so long no one would want to read it. This way, I have time to be at peace with myself and part of my family.
I'd like to fill this blog post with pictures of before and after photos, but I don't have that many before pictures. Mostly because I wouldn't let anyone take them or they didn't take them or I deleted them. I have added what I could find to the end of this blog. I hope that the next year is as successful as this year. I still have a long way to go and I worry that I may not find the success I had this year. I know it will become harder and harder as I reach my goal weight, but I hope for a little success and at least movement in the right direction. All I can do is try and take things one day at a time.
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